It was cable and bad tv that got me through the winter of 2011. A newborn River in my arms, and the fury of one terrible winter snow storm after the next. When we moved into our third floor walk-up it was my non-negotiable. I needed cable to keep me company. I had a few shows that I was embarassed to consume (and still am), but that befriended me nontheless. The winter with a newborn is a strange strange magical world.
I learned my lesson that winter. By some cosmos, sex or biology, my next child arrived in the summer. So my relationship to cable didn’t need to be on the table to keep my postpartum self satisfied…
Sun and New York had called, and I was eager to walk less wobbly in lieu of siting on the couch. And anyway, we had made a commitment born out of lack of funds and new careers, that we’d rely on Netflix and other inexpensive sources when we did go for a show.
The lack of shows-at-my-fingertips-that-I-didn’t-watch-but-had-on-in-the-background, proved that my watching wasn’t essential, or true to me per se. It was something I did. It silenced the noise in my head that lives in especially quiet or difficult times in life. I didn’t watch them because I cared to really keep up, I watched to keep out. A necessary deed if your mind runs on a treadmill of it’s very own.
Since then, I’ve used meditation and all sorts of things to develop or slow down. But this winter, I found myself looking for tv again. And it’s not to get out of my own head, or even to keep me company. Rather, it’s because I forgot how nice it is to have something like a “show” to look forward to when you get time alone. You know?
I spent every Sunday this fall keeping up with The Watchmen. Besides the list of everything to ready for the week, it was something else that was so simple (and complicated, no spoilers!) that got me giddy. And this winter, I’ve started Season 1 of A Different World!
Of course, I’m going back in a time a little before me. And maybe that’s what’s magical about it? Sitting for a an episode each evening and cackling alone over things that happened before I was thought about, but remain equal parts current and hilarious. This winter isn’t looking too bad, afterall. It’s A Differen’t World.
What are you watching lately?
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