My Daughter’s Strength

We are in the first week of school and though so much of my emotional capacity is wrapped up in both of my children, River is taking the cake. She is now in first grade. When I started this blog, I was just beginning to entertain the idea of partial daycare and spent many days at home with her when I wasn’t in school. They say time flies when you’re having fun, and I believe time flies when you’re all growing. That’s what it’s been…

so much growing.

I’ve spent days with a lump in my throat, feeling the weight of transition in so many areas– each area so uniquely heavy. River doesn’t hold my hand into the classroom–she’s dropped off with the teacher. She tells me stories, I listen and respond enthusiastically. She’s independent. She is growing. She is strong.

This morning as we went to drop her off, Oak cried from the gate because he didn’t get to kiss her long enough. She looked back and blew him another kiss to soothe his worries. She had this strong and confident smirk. She had this pride and love in her little brother looking on through the knots that separated them. I welled up behind him and in view of her. She smirked even wider. And I yelled, “We love you, River!”

I’ve made so many mistakes in motherhood. Many I’m sure my kids won’t see and some they can, and many that sit with me as I take on a new day and grow with them. But as River stepped into school that day, I’ve been thinking of strength. What does that mean? Have I been conveying this and what are my intentions when I do? River and I have been talking about this in one instance or another. The many misconceptions about what strong looks like. She’s the eldest in her group, but the smallest. But she often has this way of rationalizing and empathizing with others, that brings this mature nature to most group dynamics. She communicates what she needs, likes and dislikes so clearly and respectfully, I am often in awe. And isn’t that strength?


As I look at my own mistakes, the ones she and I discuss when I am in the midst of making them or in hindsight, I affirm strength in that. Does admitting mistakes and growing mean strength? I’d have to agree. And it is often the same lesson I try to convey to River when she makes mistakes, and one that I hope she holds on to as first grade progresses. Everything she is and will be and will do signifies strength. And when she doesn’t feel strong? That is beautiful and wonderful too. I will be there. Always.

0 thoughts on “My Daughter’s Strength

  • Reply Anonymous September 12, 2017 at 7:20 pm

    Lovely story! And I can't resist — where did you get those amazing oxfords?

  • Reply Amanda Rose Zampelli September 13, 2017 at 10:17 am

    Loved this read this morning. <3

  • Reply LaTonya Yvette September 14, 2017 at 2:56 am

    Thank you! The oxfords are from Nisolo!


  • Reply LaTonya Yvette September 14, 2017 at 2:56 am

    Thank you so much for reading this, Amanda!


  • Reply Rose Jorgensen September 15, 2017 at 1:21 pm

    I feel you girl! My baby started second grade, and I have no idea how that happened so fast! My oldest is 22, and I still don't know where the time went! It never gets easier, but I choose to accept their growth, and look forward to their successes as they get older.

  • Reply LaTonya Yvette September 16, 2017 at 12:40 am

    Thank you for the encouragement, Rose. My mom says the same thing. It doesn't get easier! Ahh..sending love!

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