Happy New Year! I am so honored to have had you all here this year, it has been quite the creative year, filled with large dreams and accomplishments. It’s also been colored with grief.
As we enter 2016, I am leaning on my family more than ever. I’ve said that before, and somewhere in the middle, where work plays in and friends congregate and creative dreams manifest, my ability to lean on my sweet family has diminished. I lost my way. I took on unnecessary weight and bottled up tension and past traumas. Unbeknownst to me, I cut myself deeper, while living louder and freer then ever before. I read headlines and let them seep too deep in my soul. At times, I felt crippled by events. Too often; “I’m doing what I can do to help” did not suffice for my being.
I soon realized that this creative wheel I’ve been on needs to stop along the way on occasion. I realized that there is no sense in being anxiety ridden of tensions in a world much greater than me. I can’t fight off each and every ignorant punk, but I can raise the most amazing, feminist, and sensitive little people. I’m really good at being a mother. I can release good out and really let the nature of what I am doing and who I am around, drive me. I can choose joy and keep choosing it. I can raise awareness for topics of importance and live a meaningful life, while connecting with people on things of a deeper nature….
Stepping back allows us to heal, recuperate, rejoice, love, and live. There’s no sense of pushing a machine that has had one foot on the break, begging the driver to stop. In truth, this last week of holiday chaos and magic has been pretty amazing. I’ve been tending to all things that I’ve forgotten in the quest of a career and creation. And though 2015 has done so many amazing things for my work and family, my person is depleted. It doesn’t need to be.
With that, I’ll see you back here in February. The site will have a fresh face, mama bear will have a fresh perspective. All of the editorials I worked on outside of this space will have a new home with more words. Most importantly, my little family here in Brooklyn would have had some much needed mostly digital-free time, in which we just choose to be in the now. If you want to follow along for bits and pieces, there’s always instagram.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you! You all have been so good to my family and I! Even though we are strangers, I feel this deep connection to all of you, my readers. My friends.
30+ Posts from 2015 to get you through February:
(Top image by Rich Gilligan)